Yes, I know that I am very over weight - can not stand the word obese although it is true. I wonder why if I can quit smoking without looking back why can't I have the same control over my eating? Its easy, very easy to blame everyone and everything except what is at the root of my problem - me. Sure it would be easier if my family did not tease me about low fat meals, extra veggies, more salads, whole grains and fruit. It would be nice if when I by skim milk I would not have to hear how can you drink that crap? I buy them their chips, cookies, cakes and sodas. It comes in the house and they go through it and then, and only then when there is nothing left for them to eat they delve into my stuff which they love to make fun of.
But what they do is not the point - I have to force myself not to use their ambivalence as my excuse for my bad behavior when it comes to my weight.
I do know that I am sick and tired of looking at this fat old tired body in the mirror. The person staring back at me is not the person I am on the inside. I love to walk on the beach, I love to work in a garden, I like going to museums and going into the city to see the sights. I can't do any of that right now. I have to develop a personal discipline that will enable me to achieve my goal.
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